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hayleydarpel
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Interests: Sleeping  , Being goofy, Helping people, playing my drums, singing, BOWLING
Expertise: I suppose advice giving, loving and I love fixing hair and BOWLING! And I love taking naps on my trampoline in the sun.... mmm yea!!!
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Member Since:
12/2/2003
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| I bought these "Stunna Shades" in, oh, February or March for the hell of it because they were gorgeous.
I treated them like a new born baby.
They came everywhere with me, rain or shine.
They never got the purse; they deserved the desktop.
One day, the stunna shades were stolen.
Perhaps I just lost them.
Either way, equally tragic.
The fun I had with those shades is unmatchable.
I want them back.
Stunna Shades: $16.99
Shitty pair of decorative sunglasses in my car that I have to wear when I can't see: $8.00
The love the Stunna Shades brought into my life: priceless
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| I ate a whole plate of baked beans last night at dinner and I'm shocked my farts smell so rank...
what did I expect... roses?
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| Money is supposed to be unimportant. The last reason of happiness in one's life.
Yet without it, I stress immensely.
When both of my bank accounts don't even total $50, I feel like ass.
I start to get antsy. I take up extra shifts to get my paycheck a pretty amount that I'll be satisfied with.
Random fact: 2 cops just came in here to arrest some kid over $35. hmmm Justice is so corrupt.
But anyways I worked like 5 shifts last week so I could get money and fucked up my sleep schedule.
And my sleep schedule's going to continue to be fucked up.
I'm just upset with myself.
I feel like my choices aren't wise ones.
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| Making the best of it
Playing the hand you get
You're not alone in this
There's hope for the hopeless
There's hope for the hopeless
There's hope
Cold in a summer breeze
Yeah, you're shivering
On your bended knee
Still, when you're heart is sore
And the heavens pour
Like a willow bending with the storm, you'll make it These lyrics remind me of the shift that happened this past weekend:
"Cut it out
I've got no claim on you now
Not allowed to wear your freedom down"
Something happened this past weekend that I'm completely unaware of. I was just acting as smitten and kind as ever towards him and he completely shut me out. I'm guessing perhaps he's missing his ex-girlfriend or feeling a conflict in his heart of some sort. I don't really want to get in the middle of it, whatever it is. I'm rather pissed about it because he blew me off at my Dad's yesterday. Completely didn't show up for dinner and didn't tell me he couldn't come or anything. Ugh. How rude. I'm thinking that it's pointless for me to keep putting effort into something that is being THROWN back in my face so immaturely. | | |
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Are you out of your mind
You dug yourself into a liar's hole
You made a little spark to live inside
It's now a fucking fire out of control
When the morning comes you'll act surprised
And when the word gets out it will get old
And every day you'll try to live your life
In every little scam that will unfold
"It Hurts" By: Angels and Airwaves... download it. It's a gooden.
Now onto what's really bothering me right now. How I haven't been with you in almost 2 years and I thought I was over you because I mean I can kiss another guy and not feel bad, so that means I am, right? But then why do I cry like a baby and get so mad when things get complicated again. And when I can't be there for you and you can't be there for me, it hurts me so badly. If we are just friends, it shouldn't hurt this bad. I shouldn't be jealous. The little green monster of envy shouldn't be eating away at my insides. You went on and had way better luck than I.... Maybe you're just more lovable.... more charming. I just get scared. Because maybe I'm afraid if I let myself love someone else that my love for you will go away... that's the stupidest thing ever, but maybe I'm protecting that.... it doesn't need protection, cause I'm pretty sure it's everlasting... no matter what happens. I mean I do remember once saying I'd always have a place in my heart for you. Then why is it that you must be what I don't want in a relationship? Just a lesson for me to learn... I suppose. god. Thinking sucks... no more free nights for me.
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